Sanctuary
Yet again, the world seems to be leading me to believe that I have found a sanctuary after traveling alone in this dreary place most people call the real world. I have seen this sanctuary from afar for a long time but as I got nearer, the more welcoming it seemed to be. It reminded me of the joy I used to feel in being just me. It reminded me of the delusions I used to have—all of them boiling down to the “fact” that I am good enough. It was like the river that showed Narcissus the beauty he possessed long before he looked into the fatal body of water. Now this is what scares me. yes, the river might have shown Narcissus his beauty but it also led him to plunge into his destruction. It led him to plunge into the water thinking that he was about to kiss a divine creature when he was actually plunging into his one way ticket to Hades…which, in our time, is equivalent to Hell…scary right?
I just hope that this one is not another mirage like the ones before it. Fine, if it is, then I hope the world would be nice enough to let me know before I plunge into yet another imaginary heaven. I also wish that the world would hurry up in rescuing me because I can tell I’m at the brink of diving into this river. Well, if it won’t hurry up then at least I hope it would never come and deliver the horrible news at all. I hope it would be merciful enough to leave me in my delusion until I reach the real sanctuary. Oh yeah, I forgot! The world doesn’t give a damn about me! hehe…I guess the only way to find out is by plunging into the madness…and hope this river will confirm that I’ve finally found the sanctuary I have long searched for instead of drowning me with remorse for believing the tricks played on this fragile mind (or should I say heart? Then again, this leads to another question, do I have one? hehe)
Anyway, I think I need to dip in some pool and sort things out. Maybe the heat is the one driving me crazy. hehe
